Weeks Gone By.........

My Children went missing, their father took them away for a ten week period when they were young….. I have always expressed myself better with poetry than anything else so I tend to write a lot… This is a poem I wrote when they had been missing for seven long weeks.. It was the longest ten weeks of my life…..

Thankfully my children were found by Federal Police… I know so many are not that lucky… my heart goes out to you….

WEEKS GONE BY

Seven long weeks gone by

And still no word

No-one to tell me

Nothing I haven't already heard

I wish I did

But I still don't know why

All of this had to happen

I wish I knew where you were

Papa only needed to say

That he wanted to move

And where he was going

And then you I would not lose

I waited and waited

For any telephone call

To hope it was someone

With some news of you all

So far that has not happened

And I wish it would soon

Not seeing you all

Is breaking my heart in two

I know that I will see you

Of that I'm sure

How long it will take

Is not my decision to make

I have tried to find you

Both of us have driven the streets

In the hope of hearing

Your voices or the eight little feet

I miss you more and more

As each day goes by

And not a day has gone by

Where I haven't sat and cried

I wish I just knew

If you were alright

That is all I want

I don't want all of this fight

I have to fight this

In the hope of seeing you all

The rejoiceful day I do

Will take away all the pain

I don't know what Papa

Has said to you

But I am trying my hardest

To find you all

I will never give up

No matter how long it takes

To find my boys all

Alive, safe and well

I look at your photographs

I look at your toys

They are the things

Of my four beautiful boys

It is hard to fight

The tears that constantly come

Sometimes I can't anymore

Straight down my face they run

I honestly hope you are happy

Your happiness is what I want

But I also want to hold you

And be the mother to the boys I've got

I have to believe that

An end has to come soon

Police and Welfare all helping me

Trying to find all of you

Throughout my own life

I have been through alot

But I never dreamed someone

Would take away all  I've got

The hardest part of all of this to

Understand would have to be

That I don't know why Papa

Had to do all of this to me

Mum is still here

And still loving you

The four children

She gave birth to

No one can take those

Wonderful memories away

Not even the rain and clouds

On a winters' day

I pray and pray

That soon you'll be found

I also pray that I can

Always have you around

                                                           

© Jayde.Dow

written 19th of February 1995